2 days in a row

Didn't feel great today. Got the cramps and headache and tiredness. But I did get my step work done. I didn't want to finish it. Well, to be truthful. I just didn't want to talk about "it". I know rape is not a bad word but I hate to say it because it makes me feel dirty again. And even thought I was in a safe place, but saying the word Rape and describing what happend that night. It brought me down. After I got past that part the rest was easy to put down. But the thoughts are still there and they are very scary and painful.

So that is all for tonight. I did what I had to do and I did it well. Now I'm going to bed