icky mood

Wasn't the best day. So many little things added up and became huge. It took everything I had not to punch, kick, hit or cut something or someone (me) today. I had to make a promise just to get someone off the phone w/ me. I don't do it. I think about it. I want to do it. I know it won't make it go away, but for some reason, I am comforted and want to feel that comfort of my own pain. WHATEVER